Everyday I thank God for B and his love for me. So blissful ❤
Starting to panic because everyday we run out of time. Really have to treasure every single second we can spend together happily. Because I know that once we grow up we’ll never have a better time than now, when we don’t have anything important to do, and we just have each other everyday. You really can’t stay a kid forever. I wish.
Gonna learn to play the piano on my own. Probably speaking too soon but this is the one song I wanna be able to master. A bit ambitious but having a goal is always good right? Best piano solo ever. Always makes me wanna cry. And this song has nothing to do with Twilight!!
My favourite cover of this song will always be by Annabel and Mark :)
Some nights, I feel like I see things more clearly.
And clearly, this is one of them.
When your life has been as dramatic as mine, you start discerning what is ‘unlucky events’ and what is ‘meant to happen’. Going to church has also taught me, there are no things that happen for no reason.
And knowing that has really explained why my life seemed like such a joke. When I hope, I get disappointed. Things happening the opposite way of how I want them to was such a common occurrence that it became a morbid way of life.
People disappoint because they’re human. People inflict hurt because they’re human.
You’d think that everyone would have gotten used to getting disappointed by now. But we continue to get disappointed because we continue to hope.
When I’m trying to turn my life around, and disappointments happen, it washes away all my hope. Everyday I try to keep my hopes up, trying to have faith that everything and everyone will be good. Everything can be good, but clearly not everyone can be good. When you’re so full of hope, and then all of a sudden all your hope gets washed away, you’d really start to wonder why you even bothered trying in the first place. Nothing is within your control. Just let everything run its course. If things and people turn out bad, it really isn’t your fault. You tried, you failed, their decisions brought them to the wrong path.
I guess it’s time I wake up. Nobody’s perfect. Even I disappoint myself. Feeling really hopeless now, can’t even make the conscious effort to be positive that I’ve been trying to make everyday. When will I be happy?
So don’t make judgments of anyone ahead of time — before the Lord returns. For he will bring our darkest secrets to light, and reveal our private motives. Then God will give to each one whatever praise is due.
- 1 Corinthians 4:5 (NLT)
I like this. Worthy of thought.
